Wisdom brightens a person's face and changes its hard appearance. -Ecclesiatstes 8:1

Monday, April 11, 2011

When and Ifs, Part 2

Much of my life for the past several months has been consumed with adoption topics.

Then it wasn't.

As a pre-adoptive couple, I think you get tired of talking about it. And while you never actually stop, you definitely get tired of thinking about it. Particularly when nothing is going on. There is not forward motion. You are just stuck in the stand-still. If it were up to you, everything would move forward quickly; the process would advance smoothly and in large motions. But that doesn't happen. You hear yourself saying to people: "When we have a baby, or IF we have a baby...” You don't mean to say it like that, but it just comes out that way. Because in reality, that is what you are thinking, all the time. Not when, but if.

I trust in God. I trust in His timing. But nowhere in the Bible does it say that is an easy task. Mr. Blakesnewface and I both know that our time will come, but it is so hard at this point to imagine what it will be like. It is scary to think it will be so far in the future. It definitely puts doubts in our minds.

These facts remain: We want children, we've started this journey, we will see it through. Whether we talk about it or ignore it, it will happen. It isn't if, it's when?

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