When I would go on long car rides with my mom when I was little, I remember we would always talk about names. I don’t know why, but it always came up. I’ve always loved names. I have a notebook I’ve kept since I was in elementary school with baby names. I even found a diary entry recently where I’d listed A LOT of names that I’d chosen for my future children, first and middle. (There was no possible way I was going to have as many kids as I had listed names for.)
I upgraded my system to an excel spreadsheet when I got married so that I could list the names in order of most liked, or what fit with my last name and what the meanings of the names are. I could date them and go back to them and decide if I still liked them or if they’d gotten too popular to use.
Then, when we found out we weren’t able to have kids, I stopped. It was too painful to play around with names. There were occasional times when I’d hear a name I liked and jot it down so I’d remember and there were times, on those long road trips where my hubby and I would discuss names. But mostly, I stopped. My obsession had to be put on pause. It hurt too much to think about naming a child I might never have.
But guess what…it occurred to me the day that our Home Study was approved that I can start looking at names again! I don’t have to be specific, I don’t have to have any picked out for a particular child, but I can start listing them again! I can put my obsession back into play! I can think about my future children with a name!
I know this may sound silly and not like it is a big deal, but for this girl who has been picking out her kids’ names since she was 7 or 8, this is huge!